Psilocybin Ceremony

I had my psilocybin ceremony yesterday. I’m still recovering this morning. It was amazing. My main goal was to unlock some stuff so that I could have a very solid foundation to begin my upcoming exposure therapy with and that most certainly happened. We were starting at 10.30am at my therapist’s office. I got there […]

Psilocybin Ceremony

My healing process is on track and, while I still have day-to-day ups and downs, I am definitely heading in the right direction. Recently I’ve theorized, and my therapist has confirmed, that the bulk of my psychic discomfort originates from the cPTSD I developed a long time ago. I came to greater acceptance of that […]

Microdose

I haven’t been writing much lately as I’ve been working on myself (a lot) and it hasn’t really been on my mind. That said, I think I’d like to get back to jotting down my thoughts again. For instance, I microdosed psilocybin (mushrooms) for the first time two days ago. I took a quarter gram […]

Ayahuasca

I’ve finally found someone to do a 1-on-1 session of this with me. I feel like it’s arrived just in time.

Father’s Day

It has been about two weeks since I opened my eyes to the nature of my relationship with my wife (and the many others before her) and it has been an interesting journey so far. I’ve been doing a lot of DBT to deal with the emotions but it has not been easy. I’ve struggled […]

Cognitive Dissonance

In the field of psychology, cognitive dissonance is the mental discomfort (psychological stress) experienced by a person who holds two or more contradictory beliefs, ideas, or values. A week ago today I had the last conversation with my wife. Since that time, I’ve been struggling to come to grips with the fact that I’ve been in a very […]

Narcissistic Abuse

It appears as though I’ve been manipulated and abused by my spouse for the last several years. I initiated a ‘no contact’ policy on Tuesday and hired a divorce attorney yesterday. It’s quite confusing and unsettling and I am still struggling to accept that this is really happening. That said, every person that I have […]