Wow. I mean, just, wow.
I’ve looked it up a bit and it turns out that Suboxone has an off-label use as an antidepressant for treatment resistant depression. You just need a very liberal doctor or an addiction to opiates to get a prescription.
I have never been prescribed something that makes me feel so… normal. It’s better than abusing oxycodone or heroin or any other drug I’ve tried. And it’s being monitored by a medical professional and is covered by my insurance. I’ve been waiting for decades, literally, for something like this.
If this is sustainable, I may finally be able to live a happy, fulfilling life. I’m 41 and I feel like I’m finally able to start living. I know rehab will be difficult, but I really think I’ll be able to do it. I can be clean and sober for the rest of my life without needlessly suffering and it makes me happy. Finally.
And all it took was a sincere dope addiction to get here.