The Zubsolv is definitely a step up. It doesn’t taste nearly as bad and dissolves much quicker than the Suboxone. I also took my first Pristiq this morning. I’ve not had much luck with ADs in the past, but maybe this one will be different. Honestly, I don’t really care if it works or not.
I’m really engaging in a dangerous dance with death right now. My anorexia is not like a typical suicide attempt where I set the time and place of my death. Instead, I walk around with the knowledge that I could die at any time. I’ve accepted that fact, but it is still a weird kind of limbo state to be living in.