Fucking Cravings

Yesterday was awful.  It was 29 days since I last shot up and I was totally consumed by the thought of using.  Basically, whenever I wasn’t working, I was completely focused on how I might go about getting drugs.  I discovered where to go in Salt Lake City to cop dope (Pioneer Park or outside the nearby homeless shelters).  I couldn’t find anything as definitive for where I’m at, but I was able to Google crime statistics and see where most of the heroin busts have taken place in the last six months.  That gave me some clue as to where to go locally.  I still have no car or money at this time, so I’m somewhat limited in what I can do.  I will have a car on Thursday.  I’m going to the neurologist to check out my numb left pinky finger.  I’m pretty sure I fucked it up by doing some nerve damage while shooting up about 6 weeks ago.

In addition to doing copping, I’ve also researched other options.  I mentioned in my previous post about the nootropic called tianeptine.  I read some more about it and found specific warnings that if you have an opioid addiction of any sort, that you should really stay away from this stuff.  I don’t need much more of an invitation than that.  I’ll be buying that as soon as I get paid (hopefully, next week).  I intend to abuse the shit out of that stuff.  I’m even thinking about picking up some syringes to possibly shoot it up (or for heroin, if I ever manage to get my hands on the stuff).

Finally, the closest-to-home option is still the shit-ton of oxycodone in the gun safe in the basement.  My attack on this front is two fold.  The first, and preferred option, is to see if I can trip any potential solenoid that might be in the door and get it open with the rare earth magnet that I picked up last week.  If that doesn’t work, I put a light layer of olive oil on the keys about a week ago.  In two days, I should have the house to myself and I’ll lightly dust the keypad with flour to see which buttons have been used recently.  It’s a six digit combination, which means, once I identify the keys, there will be up to 720 potential combinations.  I’m working under the assumption that the code will be a date of some sort and will hopefully be able to get that number down to something more reasonable.

So, I’ve obviously been putting a lot of thought into how to get my hands on anything that will bind to my mu-opioid receptor.  I’ll check in in a couple days and let you know how my quest is going…

 

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