Codependent

Not surprisingly, with our similar set of ‘issues’, N and I tend to be codependent. With her feeling like shit this week, and me not being able to do anything about it, I finally wound up in the shit yesterday, as well.

For me, it looked like me being very active in my eating disorder. I binged and purged both breakfast and dinner and skipped lunch altogether.

I’ve just shared all this with my ED group on our group chat and am heading into the ED IOP right now. Hopefully, I’ll be able to process more of it there. I am trying to “detach with love” from N while she goes through this, for my own self-preservation, but I’m finding it very difficult.

My most recent I Ching reading (https://cafeausoul.com/reading?lns=968878) seems to be positive regarding the situation, but also difficult.

For those of you not familiar with the I Ching, it’s a Taoist ‘divination’ method. Throw three coins (virtually or IRL), six times and build one of 64 hexagrams. Each hexagram provides insight and guidance on your situation. I carry the same three coins with me all the time and have a book with the hexagrams. I also use the site at the link I provided above, when I have my phone, but not my book.

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