4th Step

One of the nice things about 12 step programs is that the working of the steps is basically interchangeable. I’m fact, the steps are identical, with the exception of the first where you admit you are powerless over [whatever addiction you’re dealing with… food, drugs, alcohol, etc]. I’ve started working the steps with two others […]

Positive Use of Windfall

I’ve made a decision on what to do with the money that just fell into my lap. I feel stupid that I didn’t think of it earlier. Just a few weeks ago, my wife and I were trying to figure out how we were going to scrape together the money for a security deposit on […]

Game On (Warning: ED trigger)

My urge to use drugs has lessened even further.  However, as if like throwing a switch, my eating disorder is back on (I wound up purging twice yesterday).  For the time being, I’m going to grab it an run with it (game on!), with the hope that it’ll ultimately allow my brain some peace without […]

Wait… I Still Have That ‘Bulimia’ Thing?

I’ve been so wrapped up in trying to not relapse (or planning my relapse, depending on which posts you read), that the fact that I’m still struggling with an eating disorder has gone by the wayside.  The last 12-24 hours have seen some pretty good positive movement, in terms of my relapse prevention.  How does […]

Choose Life

I told my therapist about this blog last week.  We had our individual session today.  He asked a lot of pointed questions regarding my thoughts on relapse as a result of what he had read.  I’m not too surprised.  It was a good thing.  It shed light on a lot of things that I’ve needed […]