After my relapse at the start of January, I was ready to do something different as well as something more closely aligned to my spiritual values. That thing was Refuge Recovery.
Unfortunately, my old treatment center and sober living house had some sort of bone to pick with RR and, so, required everyone to work their recovery through a 12-step program. I chafed, a bit, but accepted the reality for what it was.
With the changes associated with my most recent relapse, I no longer have that constraint.
I just got back from a Refuge Recovery meeting and I feel so much better than I did earlier today. For those unfamiliar with RR, it is basically a Buddhist inspired path to recovery. As one might expect, there is a lot of meditation. At it’s heart is that our addictions are caused by craving and it’s that craving that causes our suffering (I think that’s right… it’s close anyway).
So, I have latched on to a belief system that I’ve wanted to engage in for years, but have never found the community in which to shop it. Now, I have. And I am throwing myself 100% into this in a way I have never done with AA (or other 12-step program) because of my difficulties with my higher power.
I’m doing it as if my life depends on it, because it does.