Grocery Shopping

I just picked up a few things at the grocery store that I thought I might be able to eat. It was an absolutely miserable experience. I’m pretty much right at the 2 day mark from when I last ate and I know the longer I go without eating, the harder its going to be to actually eat when it finally comes to it.

I put the groceries away when I got home without touching them. The rational part of me wants to tell someone, because it’ll probably get me to eat. The eating disordered part of me still wants to not tell anyone and continue to starve. My unhealthy ego wants Saturday to roll around with me being able to say that I haven’t eaten for 5 days (not that I’d actually be able to tell anyone).

Fuck.

And I’m currently watching “Starving in Suburbia”, which is probably not helping matters.

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