I finally opened up about the state of my eating disorder at the EDA meeting, without going into any potentially triggering details. It was nice to get it off my chest to people who truly understand the struggle. I feel better coming out if it. I’m glad I went. I was feeling so much shame that I almost bailed on it.
My eating is still fucked; I’ve only eaten 400 calories today, but at least I’ve only walked 5 miles today, but it would’ve been much worse. I actually got on the bus to go home instead of walking another 8 miles. I also bought a few hundred calories worth of sushi. The jury is still out on weather that will get eaten tonight or not.
On a completely unrelated note, I landed a modest role in A Midsummer Night’s Dream. That’ll be good. Something relatively easy to get back into things on the amateur dramatics front.