I’m tired so this will be brief. It seems that, if I am constantly in motion (preferably helping others), that I generally feel decent and don’t want to use. Conversely, whenever I slow down, I am racked with negative self-talk and get to the point that I don’t see myself avoiding a relapse.
On that subject, I slipped today. I became overwhelmed by Fox’s death (I’m not going to sweat his anonymity, as he has passed away) and used a small bit of kratom. I know that that is a far cry from shooting dope and, most likely, nothing will come of it, but I still don’t like it.