I didn’t really notice it until yesterday but, in retrospect, I’ve been sleeping less for the last couple of months. Not a lot, mind you, but enough. The last two nights, I slept 4 and 5 hours, respectively. And, I’ve been feeling pretty good. So, I guess I’ve got a mild manic episode underway right now.
I’ve let my mentor and roommate know. It is rare for me to have problems when I’m manic but it has been known to happen, so I decided to let a couple people know, just in case.
I don’t think my mild substance use has caused it, as the mania seems to have set in well before any of that. I am leveraging the situation to stop use of any and all substances. That’s obviously a very good thing.
Is it possible my brief dabbling in kratom may have actually been successful? I only used it for a very short time. I was able to get my heroin urges reduced to, basically, zero. I took some very positive actions toward putting additional protections in place against using during this time as well. I was concerned that I might struggle to stop using that substance but now I really have no urge to use that either (maybe, courtesy of the mania?).
Regardless, for the first time in a while, I feel pretty good and have no urges to use any substances. That’s fantastic. I’m sure it’ll change (impermanence) but I suspect that I’ll be staying completely clean for the foreseeable future and, hopefully, for the long term as well.