Suicide Prevention

Well, I am late getting started on work today because I came across an article that I’ve been trying to share with as many people as possible that I think it may be relevant for. Can We Stop Suicides? In a nutshell, ketamine can evidently quickly and significantly reduce suicidal ideation and can be legally […]

White, Male Privilege

I’m caucasian and male (though I obviously have a pretty serious mental illness… and don’t forget the fact that I’m a heroin addict). I’ve rarely noticed explicit benefits of being such but I know that they’re there. I just read back to back Op-Eds in the New York Times that helped remind me of that […]

Existential Crisis (TW – Suicidal Ideation)

I finally watched the season opener of Doctor Who just now. I spent most of the time trying to relax my jaw which I think has been clenched for a long time (months?). I’m still catching myself and having to consciously unclench it over and over again. I’m a couple days of cannabis and tapering […]

In Love (Again)

I feel almost stupid writing this. I fall in love too quickly, too hard and with, probably, not the most appropriate people (love that BPD!). I’ve actually seen this coming for a while. I mean, she has been my ‘favorite person’ for some time. Before I go much further, I should say that she does […]

Happy Thanksgiving (TW)

I’m in a relatively good place right now and am allowing it to happen without desperately trying to cling to it. That was not the case last night or for most of the morning. I have put a plan in place to safely get through the day and have a lot of support from my […]

Things Are Getting a Little Better

I almost don’t even want to write that as the title of this entry, less the modest improvement I’m seeing slips away, but I need to document when this happens otherwise I have tremendous difficulty remembering the ‘good times’ when I’m feeling like shit. Sunday was a pretty good day for me for almost the […]