I started this blog almost 4 years ago and, arguably, captured myself at my sickest during that time. I used this blog to blow of steam and talk about things that I could talk about with no one else. I did this anonymously, for fear of retribution IRL.
In August of last year, I started seeing a new therapist, mostly out of fear that I wouldn’t live to the end of the year without some serious help. Then, a funny thing started happening. For the first time in my life, I noticed myself starting to get better.
All of the things that I thought I could tell to no one else, I could now tell to my therapist. It’s not as if this was my first therapist. She was, however, the first therapist that I promised to try with all my might to not lie to, either overtly or my omission. So far, I’ve managed to do so.
This last week was rough and I had a couple of slip-ups. Nothing major. In the past, I wouldn’t have told anyone or, maybe, I would have posted about it here. This time, I told my therapist.
I’ve also written here about the Beirut in Portland project that I’m involved with, combating stigma. I’ve decided I wanted to do more of that. So, I’m retiring this blog. It was always a bit too focused on negatives anyway (though I’ve recently gotten better about that sort of thing).
I’m coming out of the shadows and talking about recovery. I’m focusing specifically on my recovery from BPD but my eating disorder and drug addiction are a big part of that and will be properly covered as well. I know I still have a couple of years to go with respect to my BPD recovery but I’m actually heading in the right direction and expect to get there fully in the next couple of years.
If you want to continue to follow me, I just posted my first weekly video at a YouTube Channel I started: Borderline Bloke. I will be posting a new video every weekend where I’ll be talking about BPD (and eating disorders and drug addiction) in an effort to shed some light on it and to share the positive aspects of my recovery. I hope to see you there.