Getting Worse (TW)

My eating is continuing to deteriorate. I consumed one Ensure Plus today (350 calories). My mentor actually gave me a 70 calorie chocolate this afternoon and I couldn’t eat it. I’m currently hungry, but can’t fucking eat anything. Among other reasons I’m not allowed to do so is because, if I eat anything at this […]

Bad Dreams

Monday, I woke up from a dream where I was lost in some sort of hallway maze and felt pretty awful. This morning, in my dream, N had relapsed and was holed up in a motel 6. I think this one made me feel even worse. Part of that has to do with how bad […]