Psilocybin Ceremony

I had my psilocybin ceremony yesterday. I’m still recovering this morning. It was amazing. My main goal was to unlock some stuff so that I could have a very solid foundation to begin my upcoming exposure therapy with and that most certainly happened. We were starting at 10.30am at my therapist’s office. I got there […]

Psilocybin Ceremony

My healing process is on track and, while I still have day-to-day ups and downs, I am definitely heading in the right direction. Recently I’ve theorized, and my therapist has confirmed, that the bulk of my psychic discomfort originates from the cPTSD I developed a long time ago. I came to greater acceptance of that […]

Microdose

I haven’t been writing much lately as I’ve been working on myself (a lot) and it hasn’t really been on my mind. That said, I think I’d like to get back to jotting down my thoughts again. For instance, I microdosed psilocybin (mushrooms) for the first time two days ago. I took a quarter gram […]

Fear (TW – Drugs)

Another marker of BPD is finding fear, well, everywhere. I know I go through life scared of just about everything I could be scared of. I always think I’m about to be fired. A delayed response to a text means I’m now despised by my BFF. There are no emotionally neutral faces… only angry ones. […]