Cohabitation

I just realized that it has been ages since I’ve checked in here. I’ve been very busy and very stressed the last several weeks. My wife and I are a few weeks away from our three year anniversary. It will be the first anniversary that we will actually get to spend together. We were married […]

Self-Compassion

Update: I just did my weekly video on this subject. In the last week or two, I’ve learned some interesting things about myself. I learned that, among the various ‘voices’ that I have running around in my head, there are two in particular that are responsible for a great deal of my suffering. I call […]

Self-Torture and Relationships

If you have read my last few posts, you are aware that I am interested in a woman, S, and, for the first time in years, have made the decision to pursue her further and see if we can grow our relationship in some way. This started 8 days ago and, while there have been […]

Interpersonal Effectiveness

This post is a post-therapy follow up to this post that I made right before therapy a few hours back. Things are nowhere near as dire as I had let myself to believe. I have not done anything wrong or been excessively pushy or really anything that would necessarily cause S to think that I’m […]

I Continue to Amaze Myself (and not in a Good Way)

Well, I’ve evidently been crazy since Sunday. The whole thing with this woman just completely got out of control and left me extraordinarily dysregulated. Now I get to switch to damage control and try to salvage a relationship, yet again. I had intended on discussing black and white thinking for my YouTube Channel this week. […]

Love

I got hit with a huge wave of love last night. It wasn’t to the point of discomfort like I had trouble with last month. I was watching television (The Great British Baking show) when it hit me. I was so happy, I literally cried. It was almost the same intensity as the fear I […]

Black and White Thinking

Ok. So, I had intended to never post here again and talk exclusively about recovery on the YouTube channel I just started (YouTube: Borderline Bloke). This was once again a case of black and white thinking… something that I have a LOT of trouble with. In fact, this week’s episode on YouTube is going to […]