Exposed, Nervous and Overwhelmed

My therapist and I decided it would be a good idea to pull out the emotion wheel and try to identify the emotions that have been pervading my life recently. It came up because I never dream but I have been lately a lot. And, yes, I know that everyone dreams so I guess I […]

Memoir as Therapy

Since I’ve been feeling better the last month or two, I’ve gone back to working on my book and have found myself capable of writing quite a bit. In the last 3 weeks, I’ve written about 30,000 words, bringing my total up to roughly 40,000, which I figure is about half of what the full […]

My Life is Getting Boring

I haven’t been writing here much lately for a couple of reasons, the most significant of which is that my life is much less interesting lately (in a good way). I’ve been on Suboxone for about a month now and, after an initial week or two of being a bit ill as I got used […]

Insanity

I began journaling on April 16th, 2017 and am on to my third journal at this point. The first journal wraps up as I left New Jersey, just before Labor Day of 2017. The second journal picks up with my arrival in Utah and tracks through the end of August 2018 (the last entry actually […]

The Moth

Tomorrow night, I have a ticket to a Moth StorySLAM. I’ve listened to the Moth for years on NPR and only recently discovered that it happens pretty regularly in Portland. This will be the second one I’m going to. The theme is Scandal and it seems I have a wealth of experience to draw on. […]

Word Count

I was just poking around some of the stats WordPress accumulates for their blogs. Prior to this post, I’ve published 65131 words since the start of 2018. I thought… ‘Ok. Great… What the hell does that mean?’. So I googled how big books are, typically. It turns out the median word count for books on […]

Confused and Unskillful

“Confused and unskillful” is a phrase from the Refuge Recovery text that is used to describe someone who is acting in a way that a western philosophy or religion might describe as bad or evil. The Buddhist phrase is definitely more compassionate, but doesn’t necessarily make me feel any better when I fuck up. I […]