I began journaling on April 16th, 2017 and am on to my third journal at this point. The first journal wraps up as I left New Jersey, just before Labor Day of 2017. The second journal picks up with my arrival in Utah and tracks through the end of August 2018 (the last entry actually […]

The Moth

Tomorrow night, I have a ticket to a Moth StorySLAM. I’ve listened to the Moth for years on NPR and only recently discovered that it happens pretty regularly in Portland. This will be the second one I’m going to. The theme is Scandal and it seems I have a wealth of experience to draw on. […]

Word Count

I was just poking around some of the stats WordPress accumulates for their blogs. Prior to this post, I’ve published 65131 words since the start of 2018. I thought… ‘Ok. Great… What the hell does that mean?’. So I googled how big books are, typically. It turns out the median word count for books on […]

Confused and Unskillful

“Confused and unskillful” is a phrase from the Refuge Recovery text that is used to describe someone who is acting in a way that a western philosophy or religion might describe as bad or evil. The Buddhist phrase is definitely more compassionate, but doesn’t necessarily make me feel any better when I fuck up. I […]

‘Wasted’ (and, No, I’m not Relapsing on Drugs or Alcohol)

‘Wasted’, by Marya Hornbacher, is my favorite ED memoir, hands down. Marya is my age, born almost exactly 6 months earlier than me and, despite taking a rather female-centric approach to her work, I still take solace in the strikingly similar thoughts and (self-destructive) feelings towards oneself that she lays down on the page. It’s […]

Very Rough (and Incomplete) Prologue

Ok. I put this down yesterday. The idea is to provide a little background before launching into the main text.  Having never done anything like this before, I’d be happy to get any feedback you might have… Prologue I don’t know how long I’ve met the diagnostic criteria for Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD). My other […]

Starting a Memoir

I’m trying to do as much planning and preparation for the memoir as possible. The fucking impulsive part of me just wants to start writing, but I know I’ll significantly increase my chances of putting together a solid piece of writing if I do the proper leg work first. So, I’m reading, capturing the stories […]