Psilocybin Ceremony

My healing process is on track and, while I still have day-to-day ups and downs, I am definitely heading in the right direction. Recently I’ve theorized, and my therapist has confirmed, that the bulk of my psychic discomfort originates from the cPTSD I developed a long time ago. I came to greater acceptance of that […]

Cohabitation

I just realized that it has been ages since I’ve checked in here. I’ve been very busy and very stressed the last several weeks. My wife and I are a few weeks away from our three year anniversary. It will be the first anniversary that we will actually get to spend together. We were married […]

Infinity War (Spoiler Alert)

My daughter has been bugging me for several months to watch Avengers Infinity War. With the new Avengers movie coming out this weekend, I decided that I might as well watch it. I put it on Friday night with the expectation that I’d enjoy a fun superhero movie. That isn’t what happened. I’m not going […]

Self-Compassion

Update: I just did my weekly video on this subject. In the last week or two, I’ve learned some interesting things about myself. I learned that, among the various ‘voices’ that I have running around in my head, there are two in particular that are responsible for a great deal of my suffering. I call […]

Slowly Recovering

It’s been almost exactly two weeks since I became dysregulated. In addition to the whole ‘love’ thing I dealt with, I realized that I also had had a very triggering conversation with my father two weeks ago that I think contributed to this episode more than I originally thought. I’m still a bit off. When […]

Self-Torture and Relationships

If you have read my last few posts, you are aware that I am interested in a woman, S, and, for the first time in years, have made the decision to pursue her further and see if we can grow our relationship in some way. This started 8 days ago and, while there have been […]

Splitting Video

As promised, my video about splitting: Splitting It seems like today will be interesting. I can tell that I’m a little off today but I’m not sure how it might come out. So, I’ll be conservative in what I share with others, just in case.