I’ve been holding off on writing a bit because I have been at a loss for words recently. It turns out that the mere act of ordering substances online triggered me far worse than I anticipated. When the first thing arrived on Thursday (MDMA), I instantly forgot about using these things to try to improve […]
This was really hard to write. I started writing it 5 days ago. And I just accidentally erased it but I will do my best to recreate. Trigger Warning: I am rolling hard (MDMA) right now. In a nutshell, on Saturday, my roommate A approached me out back having a cigarette and told me to […]
I don’t know what is going on with me right now, but I have been extraordinarily horny the last few days. I still refuse to try to start a relationship with anyone because I’m not healthy enough, but it has been ages (15 months?) since I’ve had sex. I’m honestly looking into escort services at […]
I told my story last night. It went well enough but really left me dysregulated. I’m still processing this morning and trying to get my head back on straight.
Tomorrow night, I have a ticket to a Moth StorySLAM. I’ve listened to the Moth for years on NPR and only recently discovered that it happens pretty regularly in Portland. This will be the second one I’m going to. The theme is Scandal and it seems I have a wealth of experience to draw on. […]
I blocked N on my phone about a month ago because every single fucking time we text, I get very dysregulated. Unfortunately, the SMS widget on my computer doesn’t know I blocked it. So, this morning I woke up to and unexpected text and engaged. We actually had what was probably the longest conversation since […]
I just came across this photo. It was taken October 7th of last year. At the time, I was a little over halfway through my time in Utah with my family and eagerly exploring the dark web markets I had just unearthed. To those unfamiliar, the marks on my arm near my elbow are track […]