Father’s Day

It has been about two weeks since I opened my eyes to the nature of my relationship with my wife (and the many others before her) and it has been an interesting journey so far. I’ve been doing a lot of DBT to deal with the emotions but it has not been easy. I’ve struggled […]

Cognitive Dissonance

In the field of psychology, cognitive dissonance is the mental discomfort (psychological stress) experienced by a person who holds two or more contradictory beliefs, ideas, or values. A week ago today I had the last conversation with my wife. Since that time, I’ve been struggling to come to grips with the fact that I’ve been in a very […]

Narcissistic Abuse

It appears as though I’ve been manipulated and abused by my spouse for the last several years. I initiated a ‘no contact’ policy on Tuesday and hired a divorce attorney yesterday. It’s quite confusing and unsettling and I am still struggling to accept that this is really happening. That said, every person that I have […]

Cohabitation

I just realized that it has been ages since I’ve checked in here. I’ve been very busy and very stressed the last several weeks. My wife and I are a few weeks away from our three year anniversary. It will be the first anniversary that we will actually get to spend together. We were married […]

Self-Torture and Relationships

If you have read my last few posts, you are aware that I am interested in a woman, S, and, for the first time in years, have made the decision to pursue her further and see if we can grow our relationship in some way. This started 8 days ago and, while there have been […]

Interpersonal Effectiveness

This post is a post-therapy follow up to this post that I made right before therapy a few hours back. Things are nowhere near as dire as I had let myself to believe. I have not done anything wrong or been excessively pushy or really anything that would necessarily cause S to think that I’m […]

I Continue to Amaze Myself (and not in a Good Way)

Well, I’ve evidently been crazy since Sunday. The whole thing with this woman just completely got out of control and left me extraordinarily dysregulated. Now I get to switch to damage control and try to salvage a relationship, yet again. I had intended on discussing black and white thinking for my YouTube Channel this week. […]