Meal Planning

Well, per L’s suggestion, I ate three meals today. It certainly wasn’t an out and out success though. Given my symptoms the last week, I’ve been freaked out to eat any more than 200-300 calories at a go, less I wind up running to the bathroom and throwing up. So, the success is me eating […]

The Last Month

I have basically been batshit crazy for at least the last month. That madness was relieved today when I moved out of the shit show that was the Sober Housing Oregon home I’ve been in since my March relapse, to live in a private home with two very good friends from Refuge Recovery. That house […]

Breaking Bad, Finale (No Spoilers)

I have… mixed feelings about the Breaking Bad finale. Don’t get me wrong, it did wrap things up more satisfactorily than say, The Sopranos, or, God help us, Seinfeld. I’m wrestling with the concept of redemption. Right up until the end, Walt proved ruthless and efficient. His intent was, while certainly not pure, at least […]

Tibetan Book of the Dead

I’ve been meaning to read the Tibetan Book of the Dead for several years now. During a conversation with the person helping me out with my project, she referenced it and prompted me to finally get off my ass and read it. Since I’ve been loosely involved in Buddhism for several years, and much more […]

1300 Calories!?!? (TW)

Its not a good sign when you’ve walked 6 miles over the course of the day and can’t believe you ate nearly 1300 calories. I didn’t even top 500 yesterday. And that’s why I’m still losing weight, even though I have stopped running. I’m also thinking that I might be slipping into a depression. I […]

Still a Bit Mad

Things are definitely going better for me these days. I’m clean (71 days! Holy shit!). I’ve been eating a bit the last couple of days. Yes, my urges to use have gone up accordingly, but I’m keeping them in check and not picking up. I’ve been much more productive at work. I’ve got a small role […]


I had an interesting dinner this evening. I’ve had a pet project I’ve been working on a bit in my spare time and I’ve evidently crossed paths with someone who shares both my interest in and aptitude for this particular project. There’s not a lot of overlap in the general population for the two things, […]