It’s been almost exactly two weeks since I became dysregulated. In addition to the whole ‘love’ thing I dealt with, I realized that I also had had a very triggering conversation with my father two weeks ago that I think contributed to this episode more than I originally thought. I’m still a bit off. When […]
If you have read my last few posts, you are aware that I am interested in a woman, S, and, for the first time in years, have made the decision to pursue her further and see if we can grow our relationship in some way. This started 8 days ago and, while there have been […]
As promised, my video about splitting: Splitting It seems like today will be interesting. I can tell that I’m a little off today but I’m not sure how it might come out. So, I’ll be conservative in what I share with others, just in case.
I’m starting to pull together some of the details for my video on splitting that I’m doing later today. I’ll be putting it in context mostly through examples in my own life but I like to lead off with factual information about whatever topic I’m discussing. That said, I found myself on https://www.verywellmind.com/what-is-splitting-425210, doing a […]
This post is a post-therapy follow up to this post that I made right before therapy a few hours back. Things are nowhere near as dire as I had let myself to believe. I have not done anything wrong or been excessively pushy or really anything that would necessarily cause S to think that I’m […]
Well, I’ve evidently been crazy since Sunday. The whole thing with this woman just completely got out of control and left me extraordinarily dysregulated. Now I get to switch to damage control and try to salvage a relationship, yet again. I had intended on discussing black and white thinking for my YouTube Channel this week. […]
I got hit with a huge wave of love last night. It wasn’t to the point of discomfort like I had trouble with last month. I was watching television (The Great British Baking show) when it hit me. I was so happy, I literally cried. It was almost the same intensity as the fear I […]